Welcome to My Garden...

I am fortunate.

My Life, to this date, has granted me much excitement and bliss. Of course, that doesn't mean that my life is a bed of roses... However, without the hardships, one will never understand or appreciate what Life could give...

This blog is created to share some of my observations and views... And works. :) Yes, indeed, it is subjective. But don't worry - All names will be changed to protect the 'involved'...

Bless Be.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

我的小小花圃


自己种的果实是不是比较甜?

我从来没有栽种过任何花果,也许是没想过,也许是没机会。但去年自 ‘漂流’ 生涯回国后,突然心血来潮,毅然买了几乎全套的用具和必须的材料,开始动手栽种。。。

几个月过去了,我的 ‘期待’ 也被埋进了土里,沮丧。

然后,在一个风和日丽的早上,我重新振作,一口气栽下十来盆不同品种的花果。。。心想 :‘多种一点,总有一个 ‘对’ 的吧!’

终于,发芽了!我开心得在客厅跳舞。。。一直对着幼苗说话。。。(人家说花要种得好,要常常和它们 ‘聊天’)

根据资料,必须把幼苗移植到比较大的花盆。。。结果,‘灾难’ 降临,‘全军覆没’!

我难过了好几天。。。


然后,又在一个风和日丽的早上,我对自己说 :‘你都走到这一步了,难道现在要放弃吗?!你不是也见到 ‘希望’ 吗?虽然只是一瞬间。。。’ 。。。 那个自己说服了我。我又栽下另外十盆 ‘已经不知道是什么’ 的种子。。。完成后,躲进自己的房间看书,什么也不想。

也不知道过了多久,它们又发芽了。这次,我耐心地多等一些时候,让它们长得比较 ‘壮’,才小心翼翼地帮它们 ‘搬家’。谢天谢地,这次有百分之八十的 ‘存活率’!可是,问题来了 - 它们虽然长得都不一样,但我还是无法 ‘辨认’ 哪一盆是什么花/果。。。怎么办?哎呀,算了吧!等它们长大、开花、结果。。。不是知道了吗!

  终于,它们按照一般正常的生命规律,一一成长、开花、结果。。。

那天,我将其中一颗成熟的果实摘下,洗净切丝后,夹入早餐的面包中。。。那是我难得尝到的美味!饱满多汁,咀嚼时,从果实中溢出的鲜甜。。。怎么灯龙椒都变 ‘苹果’ 了?一阵喜悦涌上心头,细细的品尝,让我 ‘high’ 了一整天。。。一整天的风和日丽。。。


Monday, August 16, 2010

How Deep is Your Love? - Thoughts after watching 'White Soliloquy'

You can find sincerity in the Script, Direction and Performance...


A long-waited good piece of theatre.


Here, let's just put all the praises aside. As an artist myself, I was totally touched by the story and felt deeply for the juxtaposition of a veteran actor's life vs. our life as artist (presented by Nelson himself) in the present day.


In the old days, there were dreams and aspirations. A passion so strong that one will do what it takes to fulfill it. Yes, it may start from just pure need of survival... But after that, that basic instinct somehow changed into much deeper interest for the work. It may not be as intellectual as most of the present artists, it may not be sophisticated. But there was so much 'heart'! So much thoughts in the process that if one try to analysis it, it would be futile and only prove to show how shallow/stupid one is!


I asked myself - How deep is my love for my art? What does it mean to me?


Recently, I must say I saw quite a few bad acting and directing... I looked at the actors on stage, I pondered, I wondered why they wanna become an actor... It's not one of those jobs that will earn you a million dollars! So, what is it? Interest? Or, so called 'Passion' they claimed. And then I tried to understand the 'hard work' they have put into the project... And then I'm confused. What is 'hard work'?


Who says acting (theatre) is easy? 


We are all in such a 'safe & sound' environment now, at least this is true (to a certain extend) for the younger generation. What do we wanna say? Or rather, what else can they say? I hesitate to admit my worst fear that those young ones has been mentally/intellectually 'castrated'. A very scary thought...


When you realize the Universe, you will see that Galaxies are just part of it. When you understand the Galaxy, you will know that our Sun is merely one of the billions/trillions stars in the sky!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

My Luggage 我的行李箱


前天,在收拾东西时,忽然发现我的行李箱有个‘暗格’。。。随手拉开拉链,暴露在眼前的是行李箱的内部架构,却惊然发现其架构已毁坏不堪!我没有夸张 - 有部份竟是碎不成形的。。。

它静静地躺着,仿佛象已鞠恭尽粹的老马, 在倍同主子涉沥千山万水之后。。。就静静地躺着。。。

突然间,我很感慨。。。就为了我的行李箱。

记得那年签约海上的工作,我便买下了这行李箱。带着满怀的兴奋和期待,蹬上以四海为家的梦。。。打从那天起,它就从来没有离开过我。我也曾拥有过其他两、三个行李箱,(因为东西越来越多)但它们终究都熬不过那沉重的负担,一一‘殉职’了!就只有它还在。

我看着我的行李箱,好象明白了什么。。。

我对它说:‘谢谢你!’